[10/21] Entry Twenty Nine: Dance, Dance

So, today was weird.

Classes irked me beyond belief, and my allergies are kicking me in the ass and I've got a migraine. YAY. So. Today's might be short.

Though. I met with Sarah today. And told her off in person. She was hurt and afraid a bit because I yelled (I mean, my voice naturally increases in volume as I talk, I didn't mean to, I just. Tend to yell. It's a thing. It still scared her inadvertently, but, I wasn't about to apologize for it) but I'm basically not going to let myself be hurt. We worked out our difference and stuff and things are good now. I guess. I'm still not going to let myself get hurt again, and next time I'm just going to unleash my full wrath on any guilty parties. I know there's one rich asshole that will be driven deep into depression next, and I won't give a shit because at that point he'll have long since deserved it.

I don't get how someone can be so unbelievably childish. And when I say childish, I mean he literally is an overgrown child. He's as needy and clingy as a five year old who has no idea how to maneuver about the world by himself, and he's as selfish as one. He's self centered as hell and doesn't even begin to care about how anyone other than him feels and has no problems manipulating others to achieve his highly selfish goals. What the fuck? It's frustrating and I really just want to show him that he's going to lose when I bash his fucking skull in to tiny ass pieces. But that's technically illegal, so >_>

YAY ANGER ISSUES.

Anger issues seem to be a recurring theme in my life. I'm having a hard time dealing with just stopping the anger from existing. Because it just doesn't stop. I can't stop the anger the from existing, it just happens. Lots and lots of anger. At everything. What I've been trying to do recently is just find other, immediate ways, to deal with it. Because if I don't quiet down the anger and deal with it, it simmers and sits. And when it simmer and sits, it just makes it worse and makes me go even more cray. And then I hit a point where I really, really want a shot. I realized I turned to alcohol a lot when I was massively angry. And it's still an issue I deal with everytime I get angry. So I need to stop myself from getting THAT angry. Once I do get angry, I need to manage it asap.

Head's raping me. Peacing out.

[32/32 Days Running Without Alcohol/Smoking/Etc]
[23/32 Days Going to the Gym]
[32/32 Days Running Taking My Meds]