[10/13] Entry Twenty Two: You don't know me.

So, yeah.

Don't have much today, and I'm exhausted, so I'm just going to sum up a bunch of stuff that I've thought about today.

A) One of the biggest issues I've had over the years and has never seemed to go away is that I always get really hurt and bothered because I always, always, always lose out to someone else. Everyone always picks someone else over me, always and with no exception. And. It doesn't look like it'll change at all, and it's going to keep on hurting but I just can't do anything about it. I know I was told not to always blame myself for it, but I really do blame myself for not being good enough. And I don't know. Is it too much to ask to ever be chosen first by someone, anyone? I feel like a permanent outcast sometimes because of it, idk.

And. Bleh. Too tired for the rest. This'll do for now. PEACE MAH IMAGINARY NIGLETS

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