[11/13] Entry 48

What’s new today? I don’t know.

Life is so strange right now. My routine is ever so slowly getting to be less miserable but when I finally get accustom to it, I’m going to graduate and thus its going to change all over again. And adapting to the work force is being a hassle in and of itself. I never wanted to work a 9-5 type deal. And now that I am, I’m honestly debating whether or not I want to do this type of shtick for the rest of my life. I like it well enough, and I don’t think I can complain much, given my pay grade right out of college. It’s just not for me man.

I like working at Focus well enough. And programming is actually really fun, so the challenges at focus are honestly fun. It’s just something about spending my entire day, nine hours, doing one thing and one thing only, that slightly bothers me. And I’m not sure that doing this is what I want to do for the rest of my life.

I figure I’ll stay here for the next 2.5 years, doing programming and stuff. And then when Sarah graduates I’ll have had enough time in the work force to honestly decide if I want to continue this or if I want to say fuck it, go through the motions of grad school, and become a professor. Which I’ve always wanted to do. I like teaching others new things and I like programming, so why not do both? The schedule of a professor is equally as demanding but more flexible, which is what I need in my life. I need to be able to hit the time out button for an hour and then get back to things. I need to have some degree of autonomy. 

Tomorrow’s my first real pay day. And it’s going to be more money than I’ve seen at once in my entire life. That’s both exciting and terrifying. So that’s gonna be a thing.

I have to get off the bus now so I’ll leave it there for now.

-Over and out.